When you said "love"
Did you really mean it?
Please tell me
If you never meant it, please tell me if that true...
So then I wouldn’t have to waste your time nor mine...
In my early years
I said "love" but I never meant it that way
It was usually taken literally...
Even though I said it was false
Remember those times when you said it takes you a while?
And that you said that you’d make sure that you’ll make sure to stay with them forever if "commitment" were to happen?
It’s been a while now...
Despite the times where it swung from just casual fondness to confusion
And confusion to care-bound?
And the conflicts that befell us
I started to feel...
There were many tears...
And that feeling of death... to feelings...
After everything...
It became "love", the thing that I never knew before...
I had no heart...
And I thought your kind was all the same
Just beasts... full of craving... nothing more
I would say... you’ve taught me... about how beautiful love is...
Even if we were never there together...
And as you said...
I’ve taught you... about what commitment and loyalty is...
And... From what I’ve learned...
Love can never be a feeling of some sort...
..Because feelings die...
Love never dies...

When you told me about how there were couples...
That tells each other that they are true loves to each other... and will stay together forever...
Meant nothing...
Nothing but foolish young child ignorance...
But after saying that...
You tell me that your feelings were true towards me... even though you know it sounds stupid to say...
It would be counted as contradiction...
I believe you...I really do...
Hopefully you mean what you mean...
I will believe when this happens though...

I know... that you sphere you’ve resided in...
Never gave you any happiness...
You said you were never intended by your kin to be born...
Your other kin resented you...
Just because the person who gave birth to you... weren’t the same blood as theirs...
And you said... you’ve always had that feeling that you’ll never get through life since childhood...
And you said that too many misfortunes happen to you...
I want to say... we are the same...
We nothing but in the same place...
I wasn’t planned...
No one accepts me...
No one expects me to get anywhere in life...
I’m nothing to everyone...
You’re not alone...
You’ve suffered
I’ve suffered...
And youve always doubted your potential...
Even if times were hard...
I know you’ll make it...
Don’t ever give up...
That how humans are...
Although it would be strange of me to say this..
Sometimes it is good to act like a human
Hang in there
Just meet me there
Just as you promised me...

Promises... I assume that you knew what it is..
Or... what is a promise?
I ask myself that sometimes...
But I’m for sure that it is also a form of strong commitment...
You promised me... that you’ll be there for me one day...
As soon as I heard those words...
I felt strange... and broke down in tears
Not sadness... but a touched feeling...
No one had ever told me that before...
I promised you too... to the fullest extent... or from the bottom of my heart
I don’t care of trouble befalls you...
And I don’t care you say you’re not "worthy"
Please.... don’t say it...
Of course you are...
I think that sometimes too
I always put myself down... but you always flipped it to the sunny side
So when you say that you should "give up"...
Are you saying that.... your promises were... nothing?
Are you saying that... everything we’ve had and the promises we’ve made to each other... were let off?
Where they just itteries of false hope?
I want to know...
Are you also telling me that you won’t be there?
Please don’t think that you won’t get anywhere...
You will...
You have a great gift...
And I know you will prevail... and succeed
I have faith in you...
I really want to help you... I really do...
I’m so sorry that vie bothered you
And I’m so sorry that I can’t be there to help...
....because were so far apart...
I want...
To take you out of the sad tale you are in...
If I could.... I would....
Through thick and thing...
You’ve helped me go through times...
...and now it’s my turn.... to help you go through...
And... I promised you too...
I will keep the promise that I will never break...

I want to say as well...

I love you... and nothing will change that I love you...
I love you when I’m sad, happy, and angry too...
And I always think and worry about you
And no... You are and were never a burden...
And yes... we will have something peaceful and happy later on...
I will wait no matter what...
Unless you tell me it’s not meant to be...